It's indescribable. No matter how imperfect everything seems in the moment, somehow I find a little perfection to smile upon. And that's you. I finally found where I belong, and who my heart belongs to. It's like finally getting to know where that last piece of puzzle fits. If you've been there, you'd understand. The sky use to look grey to me, no matter how bright it was. But now, I see the sparkle in the rain and the silver in the clouds. Others may stop and stare at who I'm standing by. Truth is, they don't know how wonderful they are and how much joy they bring into my life. The past was rocky, but it was all to lead me to the final destination. As Rascal Flatts sings, "Every long lost dream led me to where you are". Sometimes, you have to lose something in order to find something much more valuable. They're the perfect example. I thank them for every smile they give me and every memory they engrave in my heart. And especially you, thank you for embracing my every flaw and reminding me that nobody is perfect. Thank you for loving me and letting me feel it through every hug. For those who picked out my imperfections...well, fuck you :).
This road, is anything but simple. Twisted like a riddle, we've gone through highs, and we've gone through lows. People say, if you love something, let it go. If it comes back, it's yours. I don't believe it. If you let it go, it will. If thats the case, I'm going to hold on till my hands are sore and arms are weak. Things get better, and things gets worse. It only proves that we're still learning. Everything worth having comes with a trial worth withstanding. You're worth having and we're going to overcome many many more trials. So lets have faith in each other and climb over this mountain. Together.
You storm up to him and you pour your heart out. You bash and you scream. Its out there now. But now what? You approached him hoping for something. But you weren't looking for an apology, cause you know thats what he'll tell you. You weren't looking for an explanation, cause you know what he'll say. You weren't looking for a fight cause the finish was not your objective. What were you looking for? What did you want out of the battle? He has explained and he has said he's sorry. But when that doesn't satisfy what you were looking for, what do you do?
I still remember the day we grew apart. The look of your eyes and the sound of your voice was cold as ice. You budged in my life, trying to take over whatever I had left. My friends, my rep. You were party successful. You became friends with the people that I lost in my life. The people that I once felt broken for because they walked out my doors. For a second, I hated you for it. It felt like you were trying to climb ahead of me to show that you were worth much more than you showed me. In your head, you probably think you did it. You're "out there" now. But I realized some things. I realized that I'm leading a much happier life than you because I don't have to try to be friends with people that my friends are friends with, like you. I don't have to stand outside the circle of my OWN friends, like you. I don't have to go out of my way to suck up to people who don't give a shit about me, like you. I may have lost a great group of friends that I had a great past with, but I also found a new group. And it's the group that allowed me to be me. Since then, I haven't cared about what people say about my friends because I realize I'm happy this way. I've got an amazing group of friends who are fine with who I am, and finally the guy I was dying to be with. As for you, have a great life.
